So about bible study, there’s something starting to get on my nerves. There’s a boy I really like there. He has had a girlfriend for over a year and I’ve only known him for a few months. Well, he and his girlfriend broke up, and of course I felt bad for him but I also felt hopeful. I HATE THAT, that I felt hopeful. I’m just going to get my hopes dashed as always. It’s just really annoying.

Especially cause there’s this amazingly beautiful girl in bible study who likes all the same music as him and she’s just less akward than me. I love her to death but I’m jealous.

Oh well… maybe one day there will actually be a guy for me… . Until then I’m just gonna chill with Jesus.

So today was a bad day! I looked like crap, smelled like crap, and felt like crap. It’s a little better now that I’m out of school but it sucked earlier. I felt really depressed like I could cry at any moment. That feeling, I have to say, is probably one of the worst feelings. This is probably caused by the fact that the Cummins’ house was on fire on Tuesday morning. I’ve only really talked to Ashley and she seems to be fine. I think I may be taking it harder than her.

Yesterday I was over at their house trying to get things like pictures and other valuables. The only room that looked the closest to non-salvagable was Jesse’s, where it started. I mostly did cleaning in Ashley’s room anyway. Mostly the other things in the house, outside of Jesse’s room, were just smoke damaged. The soot was everywhere.

I’m just really glad that no one was seriously injured. Tim has cuts on his feet and burns on his hands from trying to put the fire out. Everyone else though, has come out with no physical injuries. Mostly they’re all shaken up. Also, Ashley’s worried about her wardrobe. .

I pretty much slept through my first three classes today. It was really bad. Then when I got to Language Arts, it seemed, I swear, that my teacher was high. First I asked her if I could go to the restroom. She said that I should have asked her earlier (even though the bell had just rung) but I could go. I was willing to look past her craziness until I got the door and heard, “Was it an emergency or something?” I turn around to see my teacher staring at me expectantly and I reply, “Ms. Bateman, you just gave me permission to use the restroom.” She then denied that she had until the girl who sat behind me assured her that that was what she had said. Finally, Ms.B let me go the bathroom. I think she’s on acid personally.

At lunch I wasn’t feeling so well. I ended up throwing up. When I went and called my mom, she didn’t answer so I just took some advil for my headache instead.

 As always, last period did not fail to cheer me up. There’s nothing to lift your spirits like an adorably cute boy. He’s probably one of the best looking boys I’ve ever met. It’s great but terrivle because I will obviously never catch a guy like that’s eye. Oh, he’s also two years ahead of me in school and really ready to graduate. He wouldn’t like someone holding him back.

Also, as if all this isn’t bad enough, I have two projects due tomorrow that I have to do tonight and bible study. Now I LOVE bible study but I’m just stressed about homework. So, I have to get mt project done within in the next half hour in order to be allowed to bible study. Maybe I’ll update again afterward…

Later! <3

Hey, this is my first post! I don’t have much to say for my first night except to ask you to read my “What You Should Know” page. That’s the only thing I had energy to write tonight.